Barren and Blessed

Come and hear, all you who fear God, and I will tell what he has done for my soul. I cried to him with my mouth, and high praise was on my tongue. If I had cherished iniquity in my heart, the Lord would not have listened. But truly God has listened; he has attended to the voice of my prayer. Blessed be God, because he has not rejected my prayer or removed his steadfast love from me! - Psalm 66:16-20 2 days later, a text at 4:30am from our caseworker: "Zachary is here!" We had previously been to an ultrasound appointment where we got to hear his heartbeat. His birthmother was gracious enough to allow us to name him. And now it was time to actually meet him, face to face. We had a 2 hour drive ahead of us, which was both too little and too much time. Extra excitement. Extra nerves. I remember literally nothing from our drive to the hospital. It's a black hole that only God knows what I thought about or talked about with my husband. I imagine we prayed a whole bunch. We chec...

Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. - Psalm 37:4-5 To those who are struggling, I hope my last post came across as somewhat encouraging (and maybe a little challenging) for your walk of faith. Every once in a while I can really feel (and articulate) how God has worked in my life, but that doesn't mean I always feel or live that way (ha, I wish). I constantly need to meditate on the verse above and remember that the desires of my heart need to be God himself. H is actions and gifts may not be what you'd expect. He may see that your shell needs to be emptied before it can be filled again. But what He will fill it with will be so much better. He may or may not change your situation, but he WILL change your perspective of it. We really shouldn't compare spiritual journeys, but they can be humbling and inspiring if we look at them correctly. Whenever I'm tempted to judge som...