Barren and Blessed

I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the  Lord  in the land of the living! Wait for the  Lord ; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the  Lord ! - Psalm 27:13-14 And then we waited. And waited. And waited. We got our clearances and fingerprints and physicals renewed every year. We changed different aspects of our profile a few times as we learned and understood more about the process, especially about the openness of adoption that is the current trend. We grew and changed a lot since first starting the adoption process. But we were still just waiting. And honestly it was very, very frustrating. It's difficult, and complicated, and expensive, and takes so much time. Why? Don't we always hear about the mass amounts of kids needing families? And about the opiate crisis flooding hospitals with addicted newborns that need a good home? We're a good home! Why is this taking so long?? I don't know, but it's frustrating. The average adoption wait ...

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; ...a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; ...a time to seek, and a time to lose; ...a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace. ...He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. I perceived that there is nothing better for them than to be joyful and to do good as long as they live. - Ecclesiastes 3:1-12 (selection) Time really does help. When the emotions and wounds are no longer fresh, it lends more clarity to a situation. It wasn't as difficult or painful as I thought it would be writing about our infertility struggles. But I also do want to continue to share where this journey has taken us. Because that chapter did end (in a way). The label, the experience, the struggle...